The Story Behind 10 Pictures On My Instagram.

Hi guys, it’s me again!

Did you miss me? I missed y’all by the way and I’m sorry you couldn’t comment on my previous post. God knows, I have zero idea why the comment section went missing.

Today, I’ll be telling you the story behind 10 pictures on my instagram page.

Exciting, isn’t it?

Personally, I don’t know my creativity level. Like, I’m not sure about how creative I am exactly. I love to think I am though -lol.

Also, I’m not sure if you noticed or not, but I love playing with my instagram feed.

I feel like instagram brings out my creative side. I don’t just post photos…I visualise first!

Sometimes, I know people can be like ‘what the hell did she post this time again?’.

Or ‘that post doesn’t belong on her Instagram page.‘

But believe me.. it does.

Also, I’ve heard people discuss about my use of filter on my instagram photos.

Alright, I’m going to address this very fast!

So when people say shady stuffs like ‘she filter her photos because she’s not confident like everyone else’,

It’s okay.. I’m not like everyone else.

To be honest, I feel like my weirdness is what makes me ‘me’ the most.

So if you expect Tayo to do things because people do these things, don’t be too disappointed when she doesn’t.

Basically, every photo has a story to tell. When I post on Instagram, I always have a thing or two in my head of course.

In this post, I’ll be letting you know what went through my mind when I posted the following 10 pictures on my instagram profile.

1. Because I can heal

When I posted this, it was after we lost my little brother.

That was the darkest period in all my twenty-one years of existence.

I have no idea why I chose that particular picture, or if anyone saw the hidden message in that post.

For me.. I was hoping to heal.

Not for myself alone, but for my family as a whole especially my mama. I wanted to appear strong, go on with my daily business -using social media, taking pictures and smiling again, resuming school without breaking down.

At least, in the eye of the public.

But the bitter truth? You can never fully heal when you lose a loved one. I feel like a part of me died when I lost my brother. I don’t even talk about it that much because it just really hurts.

To every one who has lost a loved one, I can’t promise you that you will be totally fine.

Sometimes, you’ll remember and tears will roll down your cheeks again. Sometimes, you’ll break down in the shower or even while you pray. Comfort? No one can comfort you no matter the words, except only God.

Above all, find it withinn you to stand and remain strong. It is hard.. very hard but one day, you will smile again and it will reach your eyes.

2. 🍫

I was in school when I took the pictures on this particular post.

I remember doing my makeup myself and asking my friend Zainab to take my pictures in the hot sun.

I laughed a lot that day.

I can say, the pictures from that afternoon are not only memorable but also genuine.

I bonded with a friend and when I smiled, it was reaching my eyes- it wasn’t fake at all.

That makes the post special!

Thank you Zainab, because of you I had so much fun and laughed a lot.

3. I like old cars, old watches, anything with a vintage, antique kind of a feel to it

Honestly, I feel like Tayo is a vintage soul.

I’m young, but really old at heart.

Summer 2019, I was in Abuja for my internship. That evening, I saw an old car after shooting a short film for a friend.

I was drawn to the car.

It was there, and I just kept staring at it. Eventually, I had the director of the film take my picture.

That moment, I knew the photo belonged on my instagram. After all, it had it’s own story.

4. Some people think I’m ugly but I think I’m just fine 

So when my internship was almost coming to an end, I decided to change my look.

I was sporting this long dreads at first, then I later cut it short to change my look a little. Eventually, I got tired of the dreads and did a fro.

My brother wasn’t a huge fan of my new look.. actually he wasn’t the only one.

At that point, I was starting to feel some kinda way to be honest. Then, Monday came and I went to work.

I was swimming in compliments..

They absolutely loved my afro! People in the estate also complimented my hair several times and boy…was I feeling myself.

The day a man drove past me, only to reverse the car just to compliment my hair, that was the day I let my big bro know his taste absolutely sucks!

No hard feelings bro.

That story, pretty much inspired the picture and the caption.

5. From the archives

I used to really work out in the past but as my class went up, school work got a lot more stressful and my bed became my best friend.

Working out became my enemy.

So when I look at this picture, it reminds me of the body I had before I got lazy and stopped working out.

Presently, my body isn’t the way I want it to be, but I’ll get there one day!

6. My excuse is that I’m young

Growing old really scares me.

As crazy as it sounds, I’m scared of growth.

This photo was taken on Christmas. I did my makeup which so far is one of my best looks by the way. People said I looked like a doll -lol. I was told I looked like an eighteen year old.

When I took the picture, I was 20.

I like to tell myself I’m still very young, but honestly, I’m no longer 16 and that sucks (lmao).

So this photo is there to remind me that I’m still young and free.

7.

As a poet, I love good poems.

I had to post this particular one on my instagram because when I read it, two things came to my mind and that’s beauty and hope.

Beauty, because this poem to me, is quite a beautiful piece.

Hope, because love isn’t what it used to be anymore. Especially, among this generation, we hardly feel love anymore -lol. I mean, I hope someone looks at me and believe in magic duh!

8. I need to smile more

Fun fact about me: I don’t like smiling in pictures.

Why?

I look like a chipmunk when I smile.

I have big cheeks -since birth. Some of my pictures get ruined because I smiled in them. So I just don’t smile at all except in a few where I don’t look like a chipmunk, of course.

Still, when I look at my pictures similar to this one, it makes me feel the need to smile more in my photos.

P.s. I did my make up in this picture too and it’s one of my favourite looks.

9. Day off

When I took this picture, I went to a library outside school with my friends.

I had no makeup on, just in a pair of mom jeans, a shirt and sandals.

It radiates that comfort zone feels.

Don’t get me wrong, I love getting all glammed up and dressed once in a while. It’s just that, being simple is even more ‘me.’

I captioned the photo ‘day off’ because, even though I was out to work on my project, I still felt like I was out to play.

Probably because I was with friends.

So in this picture I was in my comfort zone.

10. Not in the mood

I can’t possibly write the story behind all the 66 pictures on my instagram profile.

Like this picture, some of those photos represent my mood in a way.

This black and white picture, captioned with ‘not in the mood’ is exactly what it is..

I’m not in the mood!

Lately, I’m fragile, sensitive and all of those. I have a lot going in my head and the stress of being in my final year isn’t helping.

I needed to distract myself and the number one way for me to do that is to write.

If I could, I would disappear for a few days and fling my phone wherever.

But I can’t.. for so many reasons.

Stress isn’t good for the body or the soul, no matter how little.

Eventually, I’m gonna be fine. I’m in a shitty space right now and sort of need a head space. That’s why I’ve been sort of distant to my friends to be honest.

When I’m alright, I’m gonna trouble y’all!

Sometimes being strong is wack.

When you are feeling shitty but you don’t cry or break down, and you very much feel terrible and it makes you feel so uncomfortable.

Times like this, it sucks to be me.

Today, my blog served it’s purpose to the fullest.

I was able to share a part of me with all of you, and I just want to say thank you to all my readers.

God bless y’all!

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